Tonight I lost a friend that I've had since elementary school. I have so many conflicting emotions right now. I'm mad and I'm sad and I'm devastated and my heart absolutely aches for the two little girls who have been left behind. I've walked that path and I know the heartache of your daddy missing all of the big moments in your life - prom, graduation, going to college, getting married, having children. I wouldn't wish that fate on my worst enemy. My friend was only forty years old. He served our country as a young Marine and then re-enlisted in the Guard after 9/11. He did not die in combat, but he wasn't afraid to do so. I give thanks for him, his spirit, and others like him. Because of men and women like him, I am free to write whatever the hell I want out in here in cyberspace or just about any other place where I feel so inclined. Tonight I'll have a beer, listen to some classic Zeppelin, and remember the good times that I shared with my friend. I pray that his soul finds the peace that it struggled to find here. I don't think that Billy Joel was completely right because plenty of other "good" live to a ripe old age and we still miss the hell out of them.
My dad's twin brother is lying in a hospital bed dying of a cancer that wasn't diagnosed until just a month or so ago. Something unusual showed up during an eye exam of all things, and now liver cancer has consumed him. In the wake of my two visits to the hospital today, I have tried to wrap my brain around how someone could look so healthy for a 70+ year-old man at the Thanksgiving and then be so frail today. While I have had friends experience the effects of cancer, I have never really seen it first-hand until today. My summary of it is that it sucks. It is an evil beast and needs to be eradicated from this world. To see my aunt caring for a grown man as if he were a child is just wrong. Cancer is a beast that doesn't just steal life from our grasp, but it adds insult to injury in addition to all of the pain and suffering. We lost my father 25 years ago to a massive heart attack. The doctor told us that he was probably dead before he even hit ...
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