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Sometimes Life Really Sucks

Tonight I am lifting up prayers, praying for a miracle for a childhood friend who is on life support.  The circumstances surrounding it point to his history of self-destructive behavior, but that doesn't diminish the reality or severity of the situation.  Tonight his wife and his mother are holding vigil and will be making decisions with doctors tomorrow after a repeat brain scan.  I want to yell at him and kick his ass for doing something stupid, but instead I pray.  I pray that God will grace his family with a miracle and he will wake up from this nightmare.  I pray that two little girls will not have to face their futures without their daddy. I pray that God will hold his wife and his family through all of this and give them peace and strength to make difficult decisions if a miracle doesn't happen.  I give thanks to God for my family, my husband, and my children.  I give thanks for the sound of my husband snoring down the hall. I listen to the music that we listened to together 20 years ago and remember good times...and bad ones...and pray that there will be more memories to be made in his future.

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